(via hardcore)
dear “what am i afraid of” shadow.
firstly of losing myself to the shadow realm. the one that i often spiral into but somehow always spiral back out of. like some sort of insane, reverse, tornado.
secondly of losing my momma. my dad’s gone, not physically but mentally. and this woman and i, we’re on the cusp of being gone. somehow she always comes back to me.
and most recently, of losing that boy. that boy that laid with me in the early hours of the morning on some old floor cushions and questionable blankets. our bodies entwined, hearts beating at breakneck speeds.
it’s mostly the mental things. anything else i can stand. but in my mind, there’s too much too fear.
(via hardcore)
dear “the world’s not falling apart” shadow.
for some reason today (of all days) the world has begun to right itself.
today, after taking a test and realizing i might not be kicked out of college.
after seeing smiles on my neighbors faces as they take their baby boy into the sunshine.
after feeling those own rays on my face and realizing how much this life has for me.
so no, the world is not falling apart.
there is more day to dawn.
and this sun?
well, it’s only a morning star.
(via hardcore)
